Life without Anorexia

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'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Showing posts with label food diary. Show all posts
Showing posts with label food diary. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

What i eat in a day - 4 different days - (not a meal plan!!!)

Recently i have gotten so many requests to do weekly "what i eat in a day" or full day of eating posts and i never really remember how i eat and i dont really see how it is useful either. But most of all i  dont want anyone to copy how i eat..... as always, everyone needs different amounts. So this post is just to show how i eat different everyday... somedays i might eat X kcal and other days i eat Y kcal. And the full day of eating below is just taken out of memory and not the "real thing" i.e  its not exactly how i have eaten.

Each day is different and thats how balance is for me... somedays im not hungry in the morning so i dont eat breakfast, otherdays im so hungry throughout the whole day so i can eat up to 8 times that day. Somedays i basically eat 6 of the same meals, otherdays i vary alot. Also portion sizes vary and the pictures i show on IG are just the "ig pictures", i often add more after the picture and add nuts and mix it all together etc so PLEASE REMEMBER that if you follow me on there. I do try to add in the igstory the "real" food just to be real and honest on there :)

How many kcal  do i eat? From the different food registrations i have had to do for my university course i eat around 2800-3400kcal in a day and you might think that i eat alot of vegetables so how could i possibly eat that much? Well first, i can eat ALOT and 2 i do eat alot of nuts and seeds and peanut butter. If i dont eat alot of nuts and seeds i end up eating too little and lose weight, or well i dont weigh myself so i dont have any real way of knowing but its like i notice it in both energy and how i look even if physical weightloss or weight gain isnt noticable ina short time, it takes a week or more for it to be noticable. I do notice now when im working that it is much harder to eat enough when i only have 30 minutes to eat lunch and then if its a long work shift 15 minutes for a snack and then by the time i come home i have barely eaten anything that day so it is a struggle to eat enough while working, but with the right snacks and eating lots in the evening it will be fine!

I dont want anyone to copy this way of eating, and i dont do meal plans as i am not qualified to do that. But i wanted to show different days of eating that when you follow your bodies hunger and fullness you might not eat the same everyday. Somedays i eat dinner at 5pm other days at 8.30pm. Hhowever i DO recommend trying to follow a regular eating schedule if possible i.e having huge contrasts where one day you eat 3 times and the next day you eat 7 times isnt the best. Regular eating times and roughly the same portions is what i would recommend, but of course in theory that works but in reality it may be different.

Also, if you dont have your hunger and fullness feelings or cant trust your body, then keep following a meal plan. Dont eat intuitively if you dont dare trust your body or you dont feel hunger or fullness, then its better to wait until your body is more balanced and until you can trust your body :) Because intuitive eating is all about trusting your signals, knowing that one day you might eat alot but that is what your body needs and knowing that its ok to eat that apple or chocolate inbetween meals and snacks if thats what you want, and knowing that if you really cant finish a meal then its ok to leave it because maybe you just arent so hungry that day. I dont "skip" meals, but if im not hungry i wont eat... i dont need to force myself to eat, however in recovery or when you need to gain weight that is exactly what you need to do. When you need to gain weight you cant skip meals, but when you eat intuitively its not skipping or eating less or cheating or any of that because you dont have a schedule, you eat according to what your body wants or needs that day.

Not everyone can eat intuitively, some people follow a meal plan for the rest of their lives but become a little less strict over time and thats ok as well. Some people just never learn to trust their body and automatically eat too much or too little unless they have some plan to follow, but do what is best for you!!


Breakfast
c.a 60g oatmeal with peanut butter, peanuts, banana and berries and oatmilk.
Banana & coffee
Banana, handful of nuts, coffee
Oatmeal c.a 60g-80g with banana, apple, coconut, peanut butter, nuts.
Snack
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Protein shake (soy protein powder)


Lunch
Roast potatoes, mixed vegetables, ½-1 avocado, lentils and beans & sriracha sauce
1 baked whole sweet potatoes, 1 avocado, beans, lentils, oat cream, salad and veggies.



Oven baked veggies and potatoes, soy meat, lentils and chickpeas & ½ avocado.
4 slices of bread with vegan cheese and butter, 2 cinnamon buns.
Snack
3 slices of bread with vegan cheese and butter & a banana
Oatmeal c.a 60-80g with banana, nuts, chocolate, berries and oatmilk.
Baked sweet potatoe with peanut butter, banana, chocolate, berries. Might eat another banana later.
Mix of vegetables with oven roasted potatoes & soy meat and sunflower seeds.
Dinner
Lentil soup with vegetables, potatoes, beans (c.a 2 big portions) if I have I add oatcream.
Oven baked potatoes and veggies, soy meat, some form of vegetables, sunflower seeds. C.a 2 portions.
Rice paper rolls with salad, veggies, soy meat, avocado & a peanut butter sauce.
Wok with vegetables, beans, tofu , peanuts.
Snack
Chocolate (anywhere from 50g-150g), soya yoghurt with protein powder, berries and nuts
4 rice cakes with vegan cheese and butter.
Protein shake (soy protein powder), 500g soy yoghurt with lots of nuts and seeds and berries & 3 rice cakes with vegan butter and cheese.
Banana, berries, nuts, & chocolate & soy protein shake mixed with oatmilk.



















Friday, January 27, 2017

Friday food diary

So it seemed like alot of you wanted me to write up my food diaries over these 4 days, so here you go :) 
Though first off you have to remember that i dont eat super varied because 1) the food i buy lasts me a few days so i just eat the same thing and when i meal prep i basically eat the same thing 2 times a day, haha. And breakfast is usually the same as well! But also remember that how i eat is based off of my hunger levels for the day and what food is available to me, each day is different which you will see during these 4 days! But maybe it will inspire you to try different foods or realise that just an apple for a snack or two potatoes for lunch isnt enough etc


Breakfast: oatmeal with salted peanuts, banana and oat milk

Lunch: bean pasta with avocado, sweet corn, oat cream and ketchup

Snacl: bagel with avocado and hummus, banana and handful of salted peanuts, roughly a glass of oatmilk (which i had between two cups of coffee)

Dinner: lentil soup with carrots, potatoes, chickpeas & oatcream.  2 slices of bread with vegan spread & hummus. 2 dates.

Snack: soy yoghurt with granola and a banana & a handful of "candied" nuts

^^this is a picture from yesterdays dinner but i ate the same thing for dinner today as well



Monday, November 7, 2016

Full day of vegan eating (yesterday)

After a request about more vegan food diaries, here is what i ate yesterday. I am often asked how a "typical day of eating" is and i can never answer that question because it varies so much. Somedays i eat 4 meals other days i eat 8 meals. Somedays i eat 1kg apples for a snack and other days i eat chickpeas and nuts for a snack and other days its oatmeal with banana and peanut butter. Just like dinners vary alot as well but at the moment its alot of lentils and chickpeas and potatoes... lots of potatoes, haha!! I dont count, weigh or track what i eat. I just eat when im hungry and sometimes more just because the food is so good!! Yesterday wasnt a very varied day of eating, but i pretty much just eat similar food and what i have at home which is very limited!

Breakfast: 2 dl oatmeal with cacao powder and a banana

Snack/post walk: 6 crisp bread with spread and vegan cheese & 2 brownie pieces.

Lunch: chickpeas, baked potatoes, kale, peanuts and oat cream.  (mixed together)

Snack: 1/2 lenny and Larry cookie & 4 clementines & handful of peanuts.

Dinner: Red lentils, chickpeas, oatcream, 2 clementines, a banana and salted peanuts.

Night snack: 1/2 lenny and Larry cookie, 1 brownie piece, 1 clementin and remaining peanuts from the bowl

Tuesday, October 11, 2016

Full day of eating- food diary

It's been a while since i last did a food diary and it has been requested that i do more food diaries for inspiration. I dont know how often i will do them as i never remember everything i eat, but also that it can be triggering.

My appetite hasnt been the best today as i am feeling a little sick, but here is what i ate today:

Morning: 4 crisp bread with "butter" and vegan cheese & coffee with soy milk

Snack: 2 huge apples and 2 clementines 

Lunch: Lentil soup with sweet potatoes and carrots and vegetables.

Snack: Vegetable soup (made in school) as several pieces of breaded swede (i.e just swede that has been coated in flour and then fried in oil) (the others in my class ate swede that had been coated in egg and flour and fried in butter )

Dinner: Lentil soup with carrots, soy meat and vegetables and 2 handfuls of peanuts and 2 crisp bread with "butter" and vegan cheese.

Dessert: 2 more crisp bread with vegan cheese and butter & a some chocolate-peanut ice cream!

Night snack: 2dl oats with chia seeds, cacaopowder, sweetner and 1 scoop vanilla soy protein powder and a huge handful of salted peanuts. 


Everyday is different, somedays i eat more, some days i eat less... but this was what my body wanted today... even if that means eating 8 crisp bread with vegan cheese and butter in a day and several handfuls of nuts. Thats the energy and fuel my body wants :)

Saturday, October 1, 2016

What i eat in a day vlog

Hello :)

So finally i made my first "What i eat in a day" videos. I had begun to do one on Wednesday during my free day, but then i ended up eating a vegetable soup and i dont think i had washed the vegetbales properly or something so i was super sick for the rest of the day and the only thing i managed to eat was some vegan brownies... so that video/vlog day sort of failed, hahaa.

Today however i needed to write a 24 hour food registration for my university course. So that means i write down everthing i eat and also weigh or measure it. Which is always an inconvenience and i wonder "how many of these food registrations will i have to do in my life?". I didnt weigh everything i ate today, i did some guestimation but i do find it interesting to see how much i eat and how much protein/carbs/fat and vitamins and minerals i get when i just eat according to my body. So i will analyse that on Monday during my class :)

I didnt do any talking in the video today, apart from in the start, because my house tennant was at home and the walls are so thin, so i didnt feel comfortable talking infront of the camera...  I vlog when she isnt home as i feel more comfortable then.

Anyway, let me know what you think and if you want me to make more videos or more full day of eating vlogs :)


Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Food diary of the day

As i need to write a 4 day food diary for my dietician at the CF clinic i thought i might as well share my intake today as i dont often remember a whole day of eating!!!


Breakfast: 40g oatmeal mixed with cacao and topped with peanuts and oatmilk & 2 slices of bread with spread.

Snack: 3 pears

Lunch: Quinoa & brocolli burger, sweet potatoe, vegetables and tomatoe sauce

Snack: 3 pears, 300g roast potatoes

Dinner: 2 big bowls of muslie with oatmilk

Night snack: 5 bananas mixed with 6 dates and vanilla stevia drops and topped with more muslie and peanuts and whipped soy cream and 10 more dates afterwards!


That was my intake for today. I usually eat a proper cooked dinner, but today that was not what i was craving despite having falafels, hummus, lentils etc prepared in the fridge, all i wanted was muslie and milk, so thats what i had!!

I am going to get blood tests done in 3 weeks time and also a dietician will count out my energy intake/vitamin levels so that will be interesting to find out and see how those are! But i have ordered some spirulina and hemp protein to add extra to my intake and make sure i get enough omega 3 and omega 6!!

Friday, March 18, 2016

Friday 18th March

Friday and it feels like spring is just around the corner. Plus degrees and sunshine and a motivation to be outside! However i have spent most of my day inside. Feeling tired and both mentally and physically "Out of it". Hard to explain, but it is like i am not fully present.... strange to try to describe.

There is a lack of concentration and focus today and i am fighting my way through one powerpoint (though its more than 60 slides... so understandable that it takes some time!) and after that i am going to put my studying aside for the day as i am not going to learn so much with my lack of focus!

My focus and concentration may be at 0%, but my hunger is making up for it by being at 200%. Or maybe its boredom hunger as well, but its like i have had 200 different cravings hit me and so many different types of cravings. But my lunch was amazing anyway!! I ate it far too quickly, infact i dont think i have ever eaten lunch so quickly in my life.... like one second the food was there and the next it was gone. XD




This evening i am going out with my friends and i am looking forward to it. A chance for me to dress up and wear heels, and also meet my friends again!! I dont often go out on Fridays or the weekend, but today i am looking forward to it :) I am going to bring my camera with me and ill see if i get any good pictures - as it is an ice bar, so i think we will get capes and gloves as it will be minus degrees in there!! (I am pretty sure we will freeze, so not sure how long we will be there!!).

Anyway, for now... i am going to work through the last 20 slides and then rest up!!

Below... yesterdays Taco dinner which tasted amazing!!!





Tuesday, March 15, 2016

What i ate - Food diary 15/3/2016

As requested, here is my "what i ate" today. I never really know what people think about these as some find it triggering, others find it motivating.
  But also, i never really think about what i eat in a whole day. I just eat when im hungry and then move on and forget about it, so even just now when i need to think about what i have eaten today it has taken some thinking time. But thats the way it should be, as long as there isnt a bunch of mindless eating throughout the day... but if you remember everything exactly, then there might be a little too much focus on food according to me!

But as always, i need to remind everyone that i eat differently everyday. For example yesterday i ate two dinners, and some days i eat breakfast at 7am, other days at 11am. And amounts are different each day as well as timing, but it works for me!!


Breakfast: Cottage cheese with peanuts and flax seeds & 2 rice cakes with spread & 3 small raw food balls.

Lunch: Home made "Pulled chicken" with garlic potatoe "balls" & vegetables & stevia ketchup.

Dinner: Quorn pieces, peanuts, vegetables, lots of potatoe salad, 75% of the bowl of nuts/chocolate covered nuts & 4 raw food balls



Night snack: 5 rice cakes with butter and potatoe salad & the small white "bowl" with peanuts and some more peanuts.


That was what i ate today and of course there has been tea, coffee and lots of water throughout the day!





Saturday, March 5, 2016

Saturday - Spontaneous visit from my parents and what i ate today.

Hello :)

An evening update from me after  a pretty awesome day! It started with an awesome morning workout before i headed home to eat lunch and do some house cleaning and studying (the typical Saturday!). But then my mum called and said that they were on their way to visit me. I guess they knew i didnt have much planned, hahah XD It's always nice when they visit and especially when they bring Daisy :)

Though they weren't here just to visit me, they had some things they had to buy so they picked me up and i followed with them when they bought the things they needed. And then my mum offered to buy us pizza/salad for dinner, which is what we did. Though as i dont like melted cheese and am not a pizza fan, i took a chicken salad with some garlic bread which was much enjoyed!! And of course the family time and getting to see Daisy again :) A much better evening than just lying on my bed and watching series!!! Though that is what I am going to do this evening, hahaha. Always need my alone time ^_^

I thought i would write my "food diary" today as well as i pretty much remember everything i have eaten today which doesnt happen so often!!


Breakfast: Chia seed pudding with milk and peanuts

Lunch: Quorn pieces with vegetables and peanuts & strawberries (and lots of ketchup added afterwards!), 4 rice cakes with butter, a stevia chocolate wafer bar & more peanuts.

Snack: More peanuts (yes, i eat 100-200g per day) & 5 rice cakes with butter

Dinner: Chicken salad & pizza salad & half the garlic bread

Night snack: Half the garlic bread, Vanilla protein pudding with strawberries and chia seed pudding and 1-2 rice cakes crumbled in the mix (this combination is soooo good!)



Behind the scenes XD









Friday, November 13, 2015

What i ate today

I was asked if i could write more "what i ate" posts, or more... begin writing them again. I had completely forgotten about these as i thought they might be too triggering but i will give this a trial run again, maybe once every second week or once a week, who knows. I dont really think about what i eat or even remember what i eat in a day for that matter. But if it something that interests readers i can write out what i ate now and again. It doesnt trigger me and isnt a problem, so as long as i dont get too many negatives then i will do them from time to time :)


Breakfast: Pancakes with peanut butter, raspberries, coconut shreds and small chocolate hearts & BCAA.


Late snack: 250 g gingerbread quark, gignerbread hearts, chocolate hearts (from Norway!) & raspberries and blueberries.


Late lunch: 2 fried eggs & egg whites, 2 slices of bread, quorn fillets and peas.

Dinner: Beetroot, brocolli and potatoe soup (my mum made) topped with natural yoghurt & 4 crisp bread with spread and potatoe salad.

Snack (cinema): I am going to buy a box of raspberries and blueberries as well as a bag of coconut oil popcorn and maybe some salted nuts.


&Throughout the day - water,coffee and some sugar free caramels!

This was my day of eating today.... of course everyday is different somedays i eat more, somedays i eat less and this was how i ate today :) (And as you can tell, i dont take pictures of everymeal i eat!)