Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

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Showing posts with label what i eat. Show all posts
Showing posts with label what i eat. Show all posts

Wednesday, May 31, 2017

What i eat in a day - 4 different days - (not a meal plan!!!)

Recently i have gotten so many requests to do weekly "what i eat in a day" or full day of eating posts and i never really remember how i eat and i dont really see how it is useful either. But most of all i  dont want anyone to copy how i eat..... as always, everyone needs different amounts. So this post is just to show how i eat different everyday... somedays i might eat X kcal and other days i eat Y kcal. And the full day of eating below is just taken out of memory and not the "real thing" i.e  its not exactly how i have eaten.

Each day is different and thats how balance is for me... somedays im not hungry in the morning so i dont eat breakfast, otherdays im so hungry throughout the whole day so i can eat up to 8 times that day. Somedays i basically eat 6 of the same meals, otherdays i vary alot. Also portion sizes vary and the pictures i show on IG are just the "ig pictures", i often add more after the picture and add nuts and mix it all together etc so PLEASE REMEMBER that if you follow me on there. I do try to add in the igstory the "real" food just to be real and honest on there :)

How many kcal  do i eat? From the different food registrations i have had to do for my university course i eat around 2800-3400kcal in a day and you might think that i eat alot of vegetables so how could i possibly eat that much? Well first, i can eat ALOT and 2 i do eat alot of nuts and seeds and peanut butter. If i dont eat alot of nuts and seeds i end up eating too little and lose weight, or well i dont weigh myself so i dont have any real way of knowing but its like i notice it in both energy and how i look even if physical weightloss or weight gain isnt noticable ina short time, it takes a week or more for it to be noticable. I do notice now when im working that it is much harder to eat enough when i only have 30 minutes to eat lunch and then if its a long work shift 15 minutes for a snack and then by the time i come home i have barely eaten anything that day so it is a struggle to eat enough while working, but with the right snacks and eating lots in the evening it will be fine!

I dont want anyone to copy this way of eating, and i dont do meal plans as i am not qualified to do that. But i wanted to show different days of eating that when you follow your bodies hunger and fullness you might not eat the same everyday. Somedays i eat dinner at 5pm other days at 8.30pm. Hhowever i DO recommend trying to follow a regular eating schedule if possible i.e having huge contrasts where one day you eat 3 times and the next day you eat 7 times isnt the best. Regular eating times and roughly the same portions is what i would recommend, but of course in theory that works but in reality it may be different.

Also, if you dont have your hunger and fullness feelings or cant trust your body, then keep following a meal plan. Dont eat intuitively if you dont dare trust your body or you dont feel hunger or fullness, then its better to wait until your body is more balanced and until you can trust your body :) Because intuitive eating is all about trusting your signals, knowing that one day you might eat alot but that is what your body needs and knowing that its ok to eat that apple or chocolate inbetween meals and snacks if thats what you want, and knowing that if you really cant finish a meal then its ok to leave it because maybe you just arent so hungry that day. I dont "skip" meals, but if im not hungry i wont eat... i dont need to force myself to eat, however in recovery or when you need to gain weight that is exactly what you need to do. When you need to gain weight you cant skip meals, but when you eat intuitively its not skipping or eating less or cheating or any of that because you dont have a schedule, you eat according to what your body wants or needs that day.

Not everyone can eat intuitively, some people follow a meal plan for the rest of their lives but become a little less strict over time and thats ok as well. Some people just never learn to trust their body and automatically eat too much or too little unless they have some plan to follow, but do what is best for you!!


Breakfast
c.a 60g oatmeal with peanut butter, peanuts, banana and berries and oatmilk.
Banana & coffee
Banana, handful of nuts, coffee
Oatmeal c.a 60g-80g with banana, apple, coconut, peanut butter, nuts.
Snack
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Protein shake (soy protein powder)


Lunch
Roast potatoes, mixed vegetables, ½-1 avocado, lentils and beans & sriracha sauce
1 baked whole sweet potatoes, 1 avocado, beans, lentils, oat cream, salad and veggies.



Oven baked veggies and potatoes, soy meat, lentils and chickpeas & ½ avocado.
4 slices of bread with vegan cheese and butter, 2 cinnamon buns.
Snack
3 slices of bread with vegan cheese and butter & a banana
Oatmeal c.a 60-80g with banana, nuts, chocolate, berries and oatmilk.
Baked sweet potatoe with peanut butter, banana, chocolate, berries. Might eat another banana later.
Mix of vegetables with oven roasted potatoes & soy meat and sunflower seeds.
Dinner
Lentil soup with vegetables, potatoes, beans (c.a 2 big portions) if I have I add oatcream.
Oven baked potatoes and veggies, soy meat, some form of vegetables, sunflower seeds. C.a 2 portions.
Rice paper rolls with salad, veggies, soy meat, avocado & a peanut butter sauce.
Wok with vegetables, beans, tofu , peanuts.
Snack
Chocolate (anywhere from 50g-150g), soya yoghurt with protein powder, berries and nuts
4 rice cakes with vegan cheese and butter.
Protein shake (soy protein powder), 500g soy yoghurt with lots of nuts and seeds and berries & 3 rice cakes with vegan butter and cheese.
Banana, berries, nuts, & chocolate & soy protein shake mixed with oatmilk.



















Tuesday, May 9, 2017

Free day from school and studying

Hello and good evening :)

Today has been one of my first free days from everything! It feels like a long time since i have been free from school work, but today i had no work to do. On Monday i had a presentation and then afterwards did all my work for my next - and last presentation for this course - which is tomorrow, so today Tuesday i was free!! It would have been nice to work today as i was free from school but i was not needed anywhere so instead it was just a day to myself!

A long morning at home where i could drink lots of coffee (too much XD) and write blog posts followed by a very sleepy workout. Then it was back home to eat lunch (which was overly spicy potatoes, lots of beans and lentils (added after the photo!), half an avocado and salad!) and then i headed into town to run some errands and stopped by my one of my favourite stores, Happy Vegan. However as i dont get my first paycheck until the end of next month i'll be living very economically the next few weeks so no unecessary spending (which i rarely do anyway!)





Then I got home, made myself an oatmeal bowl for my snack, looked over my notes for my presentaiton tomorrow, watched some youtube, took a nap, showered and washed my hair, did some cleaning and finally at 8.30pm i decided it was time to start making dinner. And as i felt energetic and creative i decided to use some of the beans i had cooked (i.e 2kg beans i had cooked on Monday, hahah!). Taking my "make and try new food" each week challenge seriously and made a lentil, veggie and bean wok. Roasted chickpeas, sweet potatoe fries and whitebean and sweet botatoe balls which taste amazing!! Cooking for a family of 8 even though i already have lunch boxes, hahah. But cooking is very therapeutic for me and something i enjoy, and its not everyday i actually feel like cooking... i am very simple and can just throw together food such as beans, vegetables, potatoes and call it a meal.... nothing fancy or time consuming, so when i actually feel like doing something "a little extra", i might as well!!  I have some other ideas for the rest of the beans, so might share those when or if i make them :)









Today has been a much needed day to myself and just have time for other things!! But im looking forward to getting my presentation over with as well as my next course beginning on Thursday and hopefully lots of friend time, sunshine and work the next few weeks!!! :)


Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Lunch at my favourite vegan restaurant and Back to reality

Hello and good afternoon everyone :)

Its Tuesday and soon time for me to head into town and catch my train back home again. Mixed feelings as usual before travelling.... ive had alot of different emotions and feelings back in Stockholm again. Everything is "the same", but im different. But also that there really isnt much in Stockholm apart from my parents and my dog, but otherwise not much else and it feels strange. So many memories and it feels different and strange and cant quite explain it. Like when you go back to your childhood home and another family lives there, you walk around and remember everything and it looks the same but also so different?

But the positive is that i see Gothenburg as my home and the place i want to be. I am independant and like living on my own, managing life on my own but it is also nice to be back with my family again. There is a comfort in being home, but a few days is enough. Its always mixed feelings and emotions, but once i am on the train and it starts rolling i start feeling better again .... its just that 3,5 hour train ride when you begin to think too much and begin to question life choices and fear the future and being an adult just seems too much. But as usual, i will distract myself with school work during the train ride so i dont have time to feel that anxiety or think those thoughts, haha.

I must admit though, i am not ready to go back to school and reality again. I am not ready for my presentation, i am not ready to restart group work, i am not ready to start writing my essay/nutrition changes, i am not ready to go back to lectures again..... i feel rested from these few days, but i also long for more "free days". Because i havent really been free, instead i have studied 4/5 days here in Stockholm so it hasnt been much of a mental break. So i must say, i am ready for summer and to not study for a few months and just focus on working.... I love my studies, i love learning but when there are so many assignments and deadlines and grades it becomes stressful and a "must" rather than a "want to". However i think i mostly feel this was i have had no structure to my days the past few days and i am a structure person... i need structure and routine to keep me feeling calm and in control. When i can plan my days and plan my study hours and rest hours and when im free/resting or when im in school or working, its much easier for me to feel in control of my life and to feel like i have enough time for everything i want to do. A break from routine is important, but a few days is enough for me.... now i want to go back to my daily life and structure!!

Anyway, what i wanted to write in this post was that today i went to lunch at my favourite place in Stockholm - Hermans. Now they are fully plant based (i think), before they were just vegetarian i.e some dishes had dairy or egg, but now i could choose whatever which i liked! And it was nice to just sit with my mum and sister for a little while before my sister travelled away to her university town and now im soon off to mine!!

It has been a lovely 5 days but im ready to go back to my routines and habits. I have so many different emotions and thoughts right now, its hard to write them all out... maybe i will in a few days, but for now i will end the post here as i have to leave!!













Thursday, March 23, 2017

Vegan meal ideas

Its been a long time (or feels like it anyway) since i did a "what i ate in a day" post or even shared what i have eaten recently... so here come some recent eats and vegan meal ideas :)

Sweet potatoe gnocchi and home made pesto

Spring rolls with different fillings - whatever your favourite veggies are!

Vegan sushi - very simple to make and just add your favourite sushi fillings!
Can take some time and the first time isnt the easiet, but it gets easier and quicker to make over time!

Mashed sweet potatoe with peanut butter, granola, banana... a great snack or breakfast idea!

Burgers - Filling can be whatever your favourites are!!

Nacho chips topped with vegan meat (or other substitue) and guacamole

Pasta with oven roasted chickpeas and guacamole



Oven roasted vegetables! Top with your favourite suace and add some tofu or beans or soy meat for protein.


Tofu and sweet potatoe fries

Sweet potatoe brownies