Too tired.

Lying in bed.. letting the alarm keep ringing. Letting the minutes pass by.... trying to convince myself to get up from bed. To actually go to school... my body... my brain.... is just too tired.

Deep sigh.... actually managed to get out of bed!!! I dont understand how some people get up at 5am (even earlier for some) to go to work... nope. Im the kinda person who is only nice if they've gotten atleast 8 hours sleep... which im not getting. :/

Last night, i was busy busy and studied hard. I sat down, put on music, had a bottle of cola and a banana ready if i felt i needed an energy kick! (it sounds as if im going out on some huge adventure or something!)
  And i started on my civics essay, which atleast is a start! Ive still got quite a bit to do... but atleast i have a few days left to do that!! And even got some maths done.
   Of course, it wasnt until 22.00 which i was actually done. And i started at 1800 (with a few breaks of course!!!)
   But the fact is.... i think i stress myself over things which arent necessary... i spend too much time studying, studying things which arent that important either... ive always done that.... done too much work. Stressed myself out. Worn myself out.
  But i think its something i have to start thinking about now... take it a little bit more seriously. Im someone who, when i know i have to do something.... i want to do it right away, otherwise i stress myself out, i cant relax.... which isnt a good combination when you get homework each day and dont always have time to complete the task when i want to.

Ive also realised that maybe the time planner which i have to do for leadership... maybe isnt that bad? It might actually be good. Because next week Wednesday, we're gonna count out how many hours a week we spend doing what... so then i can see, how many hours i spend studying, on the computer watching series, exercising, sleeping, with friends... etc.
   Im actually curious about my results now!!! So maybe i can make a few changes if i spend too much time doing something or other?
  
In leadership we were also talking about how we plan our time... ive always had quite a good time planning, i write down what i have to do. Work my way through them etc... but im not so good with interruptions. I want to just work through my list.. .get things done.
  But we were also talking about, how we spend our time... on what. Whether we spend time on unimportant things... like when youve agreed to go or do somthing which you hate... dont want to do/see? Isnt that just a waste of time, when you could actually be doing something important? And maybe when youre spending an hour studying something which... you wont have a test on, and isnt important to learn... when you could be say, studying for the maths test you have in two days....
   I am very bad for studying and learning things which arent in important... :/ Wasting time....

Ive always thought leadership was a pathetic class, as i wrote yesterday (-_-) but maybe it isnt? I think i'll learn some good information from the class!!! :)
 
Now..... ive wasted 10 minutes to much... and literally have to rush around here at home, trying to get ready...... *just realised someone else is in the bathrrooom....Damn... im gonna be late today :/ *