Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

My life at the moment is completely different to how it once was. I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia and depression as well as struggling with self harm and overexercising. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
And since 2012 i have been declared healthy from my eating disorder.

I have been blogging for 7 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I now blog about recovery, my life, veganism and positivity!

If you have any questions leave them in the comment section as i am much quicker at answering there, otherwise you can always send an email: [email protected]

Translate

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Challenge.

This is gonna sound really stupid, but tomorrow I'm planning to break my routine/pattern.
For the last month, ive had the same option for breakfast - oatmeal.
I love that option. I love oatmeal, and to me, oatmeal is my healthy option. I'm trying to tell myself that the only reason i take oatmeal everyday is cus I don't take at home, and don't have another chance to eat it.
I mean, I could eat oatmeal all day! (but I prefer it with alpro soya milk and honey - not allowed soya milk).
But on my own accord, I'm going to try to take another of my options. I dont think it will go well. I feel scared and nauseous thinking about it, having go change? I dont like it.
It's just wrong that I feel like this, from changing from oatmeal to yoghurt in the morning? The smallest of changes really does make me feel panicked.
I used to be good at varying, but now I'm stuck, taking my same snack options, as of I'm scared of my other options, it's not that (ok, it partly is. The options I take, are thes which I see as less calorie/fat [which infact they aren't] and healthy.)

I don't think I'll change, I'm too scared, it feels too challenging.
But if I don't do it now, when will I ever?

I'm hoping to add another oatmeal option, but I have a feeling I won't be allowed. :(

Good night everyonrme!!
Thanx for reading!!!

:)

And ask questions, if anyone wants? I love answering!!

7 comments:

  1. Do you feel panicked or what happens when you stray from your routine?
    Would you day your slightly OCD?

    Are there some things which you just 'have to' do?

    I love your blog. Good luck tomorrow with breakfast!!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Do you still self harm? Have you thought about ODing or suicide lately?
    Do you regret starting? Are your scars visible?

    ReplyDelete
  3. dont you ever wish you could jsut 'eat'.
    not care about it.. or count calories?

    to just eb normal?

    ReplyDelete
  4. What do your friends or family have to say about your anorexia?
    have you lost any friends becaus of it?

    Do your friends or family find you annoying? don't you wish you could just get better, for them?

    ReplyDelete
  5. What foods do you 'actually' like? or do you hate everything?

    ReplyDelete
  6. whats your meal plan?

    ReplyDelete
  7. what do you do in your free time?

    ReplyDelete