Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Inner calm

Good morning, Good evening, Good night ;)

My time.. it is 11am, Saturday morning!!
  Today, compared to the past week(s) i have this inner calm feeling. Its the weekend, and even if i have studying to do, i don't feel stressed about it.
  I got 10 hours sleep last night, which was much needed after this busy week with little sleep.
 
I feel that yesterdays extra hours spent studying really did the trick. I am good at maths, i understand maths and even like maths.... but what we are doing at the moment - and having a test on. Is really complicated. And even if i've understood, i've been trying to find the link, which links all the parts together. Maths is something which you just have to learn... you have to learn the formulas and know how to do the question.
   But yesterday, after more than an hour of going over everything we have done so far this year, i found the link which links everything together (for what we are doing anyway)... and then it was like it fully clicked together. And i also learnt all the formulas... so now im feeling at ease. And not so worried about my maths test on Monday. Even if revision is still needed.
    Putting in that extra effort, the extra hours...thats what makes a difference.  And that goes for everything. Whether its a sport, your job/business/making your own website etc...
  That little bit of extra work, extra time...thats when the magic happens ;)


This morning i started my day with a walk & then cleaning of my room...this has almost become a ritual on the days that i dont go to bodypump (as that starts early, so need to get up early.)
   I am going to try to be as productive as possible today.... though also have a bit of a mental rest day, as tomorrow i am going ot study with my sister. So dont need to do loads today.
  Later i am going to go to BodyCombat!! (already excited!! ^_^) And going to write a few posts for the upcoming week :)

Today i am feeling calm and not stressed to have to do anything. even if there are things i need to do, im not stressing about them!!

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