Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Diary entry

16/5/2011 - Mando HDV


How will i make it through tomorrow?
Each day is such a battle, such a struggle, such a fight.
I dont want to fight anymore, enough is enough.
I wonder how much longer i can last?
How can one person go through all this?
Shouldnt i have broken by this point?
Why do i keep having to be strong?
Im just a teenager, a little girl. Why do i have to go through this?
I want protection & comfort.
I dont want to walk this path, walk in the blackness.
Its not fair. Its all too much for me.
I dont get anything good, no time out.
No one listens to me, wants to know what i want.
Its my life, but i get no say, no choice.
I just have to follow rules.
Im treated like a  prisioner, some murderer or something.
How is this fair?
Im just a girl who doesnt want to eat?
What is wrong with that?

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