You decide

Uggghhh how am i going to make it at home? im feeling like shit. the last thing i want to do is eat.. but at the same time, i want to do things right. jsut to eb able to do things right and get out of Mando.
   its so hard. i dont know what i feeling. how i want to do things.

I suppose things will go, how they'll go. im jsut going to have to try to get past this bit, and try to do thign right, anyway.

For the past couple of days i was thinking,  iwould love to be able to order my own food. or atleast knwo what there is going ot be.
   and i was thinking, Ok, once ima d ay patiant i'll ask. maybe now im too "sick" to b bale to decide myself.
   but out of the blue, my case maager comes t me ad is like, i would you to decide what you want for lunch and dinner.
   :) - Ok.. ntohign amazing ot choose from. meat with roasted potatoes. fish with potatoes and some mayyonnaise sauce or pasta with a cream of cheese sauce. NOT nice.
   not looking forward.

But i avoided taking the fish. as i cant stand the food. atleast with the pasta and sauce, the sauce will be on the food. or the sauce isnt bad.
   But eewww... pasta. empty carbs. with cream/cheese sauce... eww... im pretty sure i took a pasta gratang... NOOOO....
   Its just gonna be fat fat fat. Ugghh... bu i cant complain anyway. i mean... its me who ordered the food.

I have no idea how next week will go. well i suppose. atleast i dont think i'll have to cheat. if theres no sauce. so that should go well.

Im so tired. i want to get out of here.

just think - 3 more hours......