Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Hello :)
 
Im really sorry for all the bad updates recently :( I feel i havent had anything important to say. But ive now written a post about how to deal with weight gain which will come up tomorrow. And im thinking about writing a post about hwo to stop calorie counting?
  If there is any topic you want me to write about just let me knwo :) It can be about recovery, anxiety, health, fitness, exercise, myself, my family etc etc :) It would be great to know what you want to read about? :)¨

Today, i have mainly been preparing for tomorrow - my sisters graduation.
  Jealous`? - Yes alot!! I still have 2 more years because i got held back due to my anorexia :/ So that sucks alot :'/

But im proud of my sister ;)


11 comments:

  1. I'm already now keen on reading the post about this weight gain thing ;) and it would be great if you wrote a post on how to stop calorie counting and really listen to your body and not focus on the scale (because that's my problem recently .. i want to gain, but i count calories and weigh myself a lot .. :0
    .. and I'd like to ask you something: In the beginning when you started eating 'freely', did you also always tend to eat the same? for example let's say you would ALWAYS eat 2 slices of bread, not 1 or 3 or any other amount ..?
    I hope you get what I mean ^-^

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    1. i'm recovering and for the past few months i've been eating the same type and amount of food, i'm glad to hear i'm not the only one. I still feel controlled by my thoughts though cause i'm still having safe foods :S

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    2. To Jana: I'll try and write a post about how to stop calorie counting, so it should eb up soon... (hopefully) :)
      Yeah in the beginning i always ate the same thing. I hated varying or changing. I had a meal plan, but i had 2-3 different options for every meal. But i just stuck to one option, so the staff at Mando had to make me to eat the other options.
      You should definitely try varying what you are eating, because you are getting stuck in routine and habit. It is a sort of 'control' thing, you are allowing yourself to eat. But only to eat a certain amount, and not change. So one day try eating 1 sandwich and then a yoghurt? Or eating 3 sandwiches instead.
      Try making a new snack/meal. Try a new food. You need to constantly try new foods, try fear foods and vary your diet. Otherwise you will get stuck eating the same thing. I mean we all have our favourite foods which we eat alot of, and thats ok. But you need to be able to eat other amounts and other things aswell? :)

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  2. I have to do my last 2 years of school over 4 years because of my issues. I recovered from anorexia but because of my anxiety issues they thought it would be best to do each year in two years to cut the workload in half which has helped a lot. Still sucks though, I should be finished this year :(

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  3. You got held back 2 years? :O. I'm so sorry, keep pushing on though - You Are Strong!! :)

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    1. Got held back one year. Though because i moved countries and the school systems are different (different classes and so) i'm not in the class im supposed to be. :/

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    2. Does it even make sense what i wrote? :)

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  4. What about if you gained enough weight, you're out of treatment, and still you have to keep gaining, because they keep saying you need to, even though you have a healthy bmi? I'm at a healthy weight now, and still my dietician is wanting me to gain more! It's very frustrating, because I can't start running till I gain more.
    any thoughts???

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  5. I'm trying to recover by taking on a healthy lifestyle (eating healthy and working out, instead of skipping meals and reducing the amounts of food). But I'm wondering if, doing so, I'm not just deluding myself by replacing an obsession by another. Have you ever felt that way ?

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    1. Its only you who can know whether you are eating healthy and working out because you actually enjoy it, or because it is a way of coping with eating?
      Can you go a few days/a week without exercise? If you cant, then you need to start thinking abotu why you are actually exercising.

      Can you eat unhealthy food? If you cant, then your eating healthy and exercising it just turning into another form of an ED.
      If you are restricting yourself from certain things and get anxiety if you dont exercise or eat unhealthy. Then you need to change your ways.

      But its only you who can know - no one else knows. And its up to you to change your ways if you are heading down the wrong path.

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  6. Any posts about yourself are always welcome! (:

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