Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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My workout

These are just a few of the exercises i did today... :) hehe feels weird posting. And yes, i do need to improve my form on the deadlifts, push ups & the wheel... heh he :)

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10 comments:

  1. whaaaaaaaat! haha, girl you are a MACHINE!!!! serious props to you, im impressed!!!! i could never lift that kindof weight. i feel a little ashamed of my weak, sickly body now!

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    1. Hahah thank you :) Dont feel ashamed of your body.... you have to work up your strength, i mean i began barely being able ot lift 3kg and having no idea what a squat is... It takes time, and just be happy with your own progresses :) Dont compare yourself to anyone else :)

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  2. Ace :) I always feel like i should video my lifting to check form, but there are always too many people in the uni gym lol. Out of curiosity what was the weight of the bar you were lifting at the start? Impressive stuff :) Love lifting!!!

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    1. Thank you! Yeah i dont usually film because there is so many people... but today it was empty, so i thought 'why not!'
      Its 30kg - i use more when i use the smiths machine :)

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    2. haha exactly! One day there might be noone at uni.....i can dream XD Ace! i love reading your posts about lifting. it is similar to me. it really heped me in recovery because it shows you what your body can DO not what it looks like. It's such a great freeing feeling ^_^ And omg i don't know about you but it makes my appetite go crazy hehe :P

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    3. Exactly!! Yes, it really revs up my metabolism and makes me sooo hungry!

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  3. Hi! I didn´t know in which post to ask so here it comes. I´ve had anorexia for four years now and at the moment I struggle whit a serious relapse phase. But now I have noticed that one of my friends is having clear symptoms of an ED and she has lost some weight. She knows my situation so I told her what I have seen and tried to explain what I have been through. She denies everything and now avoids me a little bit. Her behavior is very triggering to me in a very negative way. I feel like when she is not eating enough, I have to eat even less. And that I have to show her how horrible this is and how I have almost nothing of my life left because of my ED. I want to tell her that she will loose everything, if she let´s this continue. I cannot stop thinking of her situation and what can I do for her. At the same time I am again doing worse whit my recovery. Please give me some advice what to do. She is in my study group so we cannot avoid each other.
    Thank you

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    1. Instead of trying to compete with your friend... trying to eat less, weigh less etc. Try to focus on recovery.. getting better. You see her, you see what she is doing, how she is slowly killing herself, and you dont want her to do that to herself... but why are you letting yourself do that to yourself? Things are just going to get worse for you if you keep losing weight, if you dont eat enough.
      You can try to help her... but you have to think... 'this is your journey, this is your health' and instead focus on yourself. Dont worry about anyone else, or what anyone else is doing... there will always be other people who are sick or have an eating disorder. Or people trying diets and trying to lose weight.
      So instead, you need to do your own thing. Eat because you NEED it. Gain wieght for YOUR health.
      I am sorry to hear that it is your friend, and i know how it feels how you want to help her... And all you can try to do is support her, but you need to be able ot help yourself first before you help anyone else.
      You said you can't avoid her, but i mean you dont need to spend all your time with her... she will get help. But you also need help, so instead of focusing on her, focus on yourself.

      Find your reason to recover, dont let your relapse make you any worse... keep fighting. Be strong. I know its not easy, but recovery is worth it.
      Focus on yourself and your own health & recovery. Thats my best advice.

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  4. How did you first learn all of the different weights and the correct form for each exercise when you were first learning?

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    1. I did alot of research online, looked at different exercises and how to do them. And tested myself forward... watching youtube clips is great as well :)

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