Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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If you are cooking for yourself do you chose lower calorie food? Or is there things you dont want to use like oil or butter etc? 
  When im on my own/cook for myself i make whatever i fancy and cook just the same like i would if i was cooking for others.
   If i fry something then ill use oil, or ill use cream if im making a pasta sauce etc etc. But it can happen sometimes when im on my own ill just end up eating like a chicken salad for dinner.

1.What is your favourite movie? And why do you like it?
   This is hard.... i like alot of films. I love all of Johnny Depps films, the Notebook, Forrest  Gump, Harry potter movies, Wildchild etc etc.....

But i think my favourite film, or one of them, is Pirates of the Carribean: Curse of the black Pearl.
  I dont know how many times ive watched it, i can literally all the lines!! I love Johnny Depp. And i love the plot... its so different!!!
 
 
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2.What is your favourite subject at school? Hmm... I like science and maths... One of those brainy ones!! Im good at both of the subjects and i find them interesting!!! But im not planning to pursue a career in those.

3.Do you feed people? I mean say to have an other cookie or something like that?
  Hahah, this is a good question!! But no i dont. Because i know how annoying that is.... i hate when someone is like, 'take another sandwich. Eat more. Take some more potatoes. More cookies' etc etc... i heard that all the time while growing up. - Because i always had to eat so much, so my parents always wanted me to eat more.
   When i was sick, i used to always make food for others. Always ask if anyone wanted something to eat... mainly because i was so hungry and all i did was think about food. And instead of making food for myself, i spent time making food for others. And i loved baking..... so i would always bake for others, haha... i was feeding them.
  But now i dont. I only make dinner/lunch if i have to, or if i feel like it. And i only bake when i want to eat it myself.
   I still offer to make food for people, i.e be like, should i make a sandwich for you... if someone is hungry (like my mum or sister) but i dont force them. I just suggest!!!

Whats your favourite food?
Errmm.... i love Chocolate. sushi. Chicken and noodles. chicken soup. Salad. fruit, beries and vegetables!! and so much more... I love food! !:)


 Do you like school? 
Hmmm no i dont. I would prefer to study at home. The only thing i like about school is meeting friends. I get good grades, and study... but really, i hate studying. haha


What's your shoe size?
Why are you asking???!!! You can send me a pair of shoes if you'd like?! XD
  im a 7.... Size 41!!!


 How would your perfect day be?
Waking up around 9ish, in a really big bed!!! with the person i love! eating breakfast together, and then i go for a run with my partner (boyfriend?!)
   Then we get ready for the day. And we would go out and do something like lie on the beach/go to some museum/walk around in town/ do something spontanious... or if its raining, just spend the day in doors reading/cuddling/watching films!
   And then eating lunch in a cosy caffe and sitting there for a while. And then we would either go home and do something or continue doing what we were doing before! (XD)
  And then we'd order take away sushi and sit at home, eating dinner together. And then we'd either go out clubbing/meet friends. or we'd spend the evening watching a film!!

hahah... XD i dont know.?



Would you rather have a cosy night in or party?:D

   This is hard.. both. It depends on my mood and what ive done during the day!

What are your worst triggers?(for me its other people around me eating less than me especially my sister)
 Hmm... thats a trigger aswell.  I dont really know... i dont feel im triggered that easily. I mean im mentally very strong.
  But what i hate is when others start talking about calories/weight/ how little they ate, or how much they weigh.
   When people talk about exercise, thats very triggering. I mean, i can go running for an hour and do weight training, and then i read a blog/hear someone saying that they went to the gym and did like 45 minuts spinn... i then fel bad about myself, as if i didnt do enough...?
  With exercise and training i can compare myself very much...

And what is your favourite sweet? (for me its stroopwafles but i rarely allow myself to eat one since they are so high in calories...


  I love Pick N' Mix!!! My favourite are these chocolates with caramel inside.... I could eat those until im about to burst!!! haha



What do you do when you are on holiday and there is just no food you want to eat? Like no healthy option or something u usually have. Try new things or go and buy things?
   Try new things... it can be hard when your away. And you cant make your own food, always eating out, or someone else is making food. So you cant really decide, and there might not always be what you want to eat.... so it can be hard. But you just have to let things be, not try to control them and jsut accept the food that is served. If you really hate it, dont eat much.
   For me, while im away. I would try something new, or something which i know i like if we're eating in restaurants.. i dont care about calories. I chose what i fancy!
  And then when we're staying i.e in a cottage, and its someone else cooking the food then i sometimes i just say what i fancy or give tips about what would be nice. But i dont control. I try to not spend so much time in the kitchen, or telling people what we should eat.
  And i definitely dont refuse food just ebcause its not what i want...

May i come to visit you (maybe for some coffee) when i'm in Stockholm


Of course!!!:) Just let me know! Send me an email. I can always show you stockholm, or T-C where all the shops are!! haha :) Would love to meet you :)

Do you not eat some foods because they're high calorie?
Of course not. I eat what i like!!! I dont care about the calories.. like Mc Donalds.. i dont like it. and i know its high calorie.

Do you get anxiety if you were to eat loads of. Chocolate?

 Depends how much... but if i were to eat a whole bar i.e 200g... yeah, then id get anxiety. A little. But i wouldnt like restrict because of it.

Do you let others prepare food for you? I.e pour milk in your tea. Plate up food for dinner. 

Of course. If someone offers to make me tea or coffee, i would let them pour milk. I mean, 10ml milk here and there isnt going to make you fat.
   Dinner... it depends. If someone has already plated up for me, im not someone to protest, but ususally i wold plate up myself. Not because i have a problem with others doing it, but mainly that then i can take how much i want or know ill eat.

Do you drink juice or sugar drinks I.e normal coke?

  I dont... but that doesnt mean that i cant. Its two different things. If we have juice in the house, i might take if i want it or not. But normal sodas i dont drink... i can, if i have to. But theres light soda so i dont see why i have to drink the one with sugar, because theres nothing beneficial or good about it.

Tea or coffee?
   I love both... i cant choose!!!! :)

Do you get anxiety when you dont know how many calories are in the food (like in the restaurant or when not at home)?
  No. I dont count calories, so it doesnt matter to me :) Thats freedom!

What are your safe foods that you can eat as much you want to?

 Fruit, vegetables, salad!   

Is there some food you would like to eat everyday or addicted to?

hmmm.... im addicted to almonds. Fruit and grilled chicken!! if i could live on that... i would!

Do you have any calming rituals when you have anxiety or uncontrollable hunger?

 When i feel really hungry...like binge hungry. Then i try to do something... like go for a walk. take a shower. sit and talk with someone. Write... anything but just sit and stare at a film. I need to use my brain, so that i dont just sit there thinking about food.
   Calming rituals? not really.... i write.. that helps me. Or i would just sit/stand (standing can help me keep calm..... which sounds weird.) or i stretch sometimes. and just take deep breaths and think.... think through rationally. it doesnt always help, but sometimes.
  Otherwise i lock myself in my room and play really loud music!  

How often do you eat ice-cream?

   Haha.. not so often. Ice cream isnt my favourite... id prefer to eat chocolate!! XD

Things that piss you off?
   When people dont put their plates in the dishwasher. When kids cry on the train. When people walk really slow on the street. When people are obnoxious and ego-istic.
   When my family make me angry!!!

What makes you happy? 
When i see friends. Going for runs. When someone takes me on a coffee date (and pays! XD). Buying things on sale!


What males you sad?
When plans get cancelled. When its raining.. or that doesnt make me sad. But i dont like it.
 When i feel helpless and cant help friends or family who need help. When i get given out to.


 What makes you angry?
???? Arguing with my sister. When im running late. Not eating!!! XD 

What do you do when you're bored?

Go on the computer. Read. Walk around in the house . Play loud music and dance around. Bake something. Make funny face in the mirror!!!


 What's your favourite thing to do?
  Runnning. Sleeping. Writing.

What's your favourite chocolate?
  Center/ Cadbury Caramel!!
   
Where would you like to travel to?
   New York. Paris. Hawaii. Thai land. Florida!

Have you ever tried drugs ?
Never... unless you count the ones that are prescribed? :)

Have you ever done anything stupid while drunk?

   hahaha.... what a question!! Yeah, ive sent some embarrassin mails to people and commented things on facebook. Fallen out of a taxi. Walked into doors and poles. Fallen off a chair.  and other thigns... but thats the ones that i can remember... -_-

Have you ever done these "8 minute abs" from youtube? 
Ive done it once. And that was a few weeks back (never when i was sick.) that was mainly because i saw & heard all this about blogilatees so i was like ok, what is this. So i tried one for abs, and one for the ass.... and i mean, they were good. I got some good exercises & moves to try. But i dont really do any of that at home. It feels so sick, as i used to do all these exercise at home while iw as sick. So i just do like sit ups/push ups/crunches etc etc when im at the gym!!


Do you have one certain abs workout regime? 
   Yeah i have a gym routine i do. Which is basically loads of different moves i.e plank, sit ups, crunchs, push ups, bicycle crunches etc etc (dont even know the names of them) which i do 15 reps. 2-3 sets.
   And i do that whenever i go to the gym which is 2-3 times a week :) And it works very well!!! I came p with the routine myself!!


How often do you workout your abs?
   2-3 times a week, or whenever i go to the gym!! :)




Thank you to everyone who asked :)

1 comment:

  1. "make funny face in the mirror" lol that´s exactly me:D
    Just love these question time posts and your answers.

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