Jealous bitch.

I swear i am such a jealous bitch. Cus you know as i dont have anyone ot really pick me up, not thta my supervisor gave me much time out anyway, but as i havent realy been allowed out this week, then theres this one girl here, and she's nice enough but when it comes to eating its kind of weird. Well not really, i suppose its usual behaviour for us. But she kind of stirs the food around, i cant deny, i've done that aswell, trying to like, make the food stick to the plate so you don have to eat it, or soemthing liek that, but i've releaized, it doesnt work you just end up eating it anywy. And then she always checks the time before hse eats, so she knows how long she takes, and she seems to want to be last, which i dont get, you want to finish and be out of there, but also, sometimes i eat slower because i dont want ot finish first, because then its like, "Oh, well you jsut ate ina  normal time. Thats not normal ,you shoudl eat slower adn take longer time, because its better." So yah, i have eaten slower just to stop myself being first to finish. But anyway this post is not about me bitching about other people its mroe to write about what a bitch i am. I swear this morning i was like, "its unfair, she gets to go away each day even though she messes with her food and does eveyrhting to try to get rid of it. but yet im stuck here with them discussing whher i need a wheel chair." And, then to top off what i bitch i am, i was like, "I hope she cant go, i hope she doesnt get time out." I swear, i nearly slapped myself. Like WTF? Whot hinks like that. I know im jealous, who wouldnt be, i work my ass off but get nothing out of it. But to think that i am such a bitch while im jealuos. Well... when i was little like two, my sister got this barbie bed, like the little toy bed for barbies  for christmas and i was so jealoust hat i went and sat on it and it broke!! :) Haha, i alugh at it now, i was so stupid, but htta jsut goes to show that i dont take jelousy well. I think its beacuse i've usually always been handed everyhting on a golden platter, no, a golden platter encrusted with diamonds. So i've always been spoilt and now that im not getting what i want and others are, im jealous. I
   I've got to try to over come that, it's not a good trait.


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