Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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What a start!!

So this morning, got up, got ready, just an average morning so no need to tell you about that. But then when i went up to Mando and was gonna have my breakfast, i sat down with my porridge and i dont know, something seemed off, but i jsut started to eta anywya. then half way through isaw that hte milk looked funny, as if it had gone off. and it tasted funny aswell.
  So iw ent up to one ofthe staff and asked if it looked ok, and hse was like "No, it looks like the milk has gone off, you're gonna have to start again." DAMN! i had already  eaten like half of the breakfats, so it ehn had to start again, so it wasnt until like 8.30 when i finlly started eating. :(
so i've had a breakfast and a half. :( Well my supervisor did say, you know take a little bit extra, cus i ed my weight to go up. But damn, i'll do it of my own accord (well not really) but now i jsut feel like nto eating all day. I should ahve to eat double. and my  calorie intake is also based on my CF so id o have a much higher meal plan than nayone else aswell as hte fact that they ahd to raise it so i would be able t go out adn do stuff. I dont know. Just seems unfair, cus my weight is also gonna be a healthy CF weight, not a healthy normal weight, people with CF sually have to have a higher weigth to keep their chest well, but my CF isnt bad, its aways been good so i dont see why i haev to weight like 10kg (r seomthing) more than what i would weigh if iddint have CF. :(

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