Life without Anorexia

My motto is
'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Next day - Sunday.

So i had set my alarm for 8.10 the next day, a bit of a sleep in, compared to my usual time of 7am every morning. But i woke up before my alarm went off thinking it was most probably like 3am, but when i checked my hone it was 8.09 and seconds later my alarm rang!! Weird huh?
  I then got up and made breakfast. Then... didnt do anything ot exciting, then it was my 10 o clock snack which urned out to be my 10.30 snack!! ;)
  Then my aunt suggested that we take a drive, so her boyfriend drove us aroun a bit, most places we wetn to i ahd already been but it was still nice to see and then i memorised the naem with the place, because before i didnt know what the places were called, like i'd heard hte names but i couldnt place them to an area, but now i think i have a better idea!! ;) So there was somethinggood out of it!!
  When we got back we made lunch, which was fish which they added breadcrumbs too, potatoe, salad and holndaise sauce (which, when i learned the calorie intake, i refused to have.) It was kind of horrible how much oil thye used to fry the fish, so try to not eat teh skin. Not easy as you haev to eat EVERYTHING on your plate.
  But i managed to get through it... not easy though... jsut thinkning of all the calories. :(Ew... i should really stop doing that, it doesnt help me one bit.
  Then later my sister nad her friend came over, so we walked to my new school which is just a few minutes away!! It's veyr fancy, veyr modern. So im pretty pleased about going there, but a schools a school, still gonna be taught a lod of crap which you dont really care about!! Haha! :) (Im really a nerd! :P Just tryingt o act cool by saying that i hate school)
  Then.... yah then we didnt do much, walked back adn played some papaer games. Not that interesting.
 
But i kind of got hte vibe that my aunt diddnt want me there, like she wanted to get rid of me. Becuse she was like we'll bring you back for four, after your 3 o clock snack, but i told her that i could be back for dinner, but she was like but i thought its 24 hours, and i explained that it was ok to be gone for 25 hours!! :) Then she asked whta time we shoudl go and i said 5, but then at 4.30 she was like, oh i think its time to go and i told her that we could wait a half hour.
  And then i asked her jokingly iff she really wanted to get rid of me that bad, but she was just like, "no...no... no, i dont." But not in a way that she means it. So that kind of sucked. :( I jsut want to be out of hosital, i want to see my mummy again.

But yeah, that was pretty much my weekend!!

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