Life without Anorexia

My motto is 'Dont let the sadness of your past & the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present'

I am a generally happy girl who loves running, going to the gym and eating food!! Though my life has been very different.
I spent 5 years sick with anorexia nervosia & purging tendencies & over exercising. I was depressed and self harmed. I spent 2 years in different treatment centres.
After alot of struggles, lots of ups and downs, suicide attempts, tears, anxiety, panic and never thinking i would be healthy.
I am now declared healthy from anorexia nervosia.

I have been blogging for 4 years, and my whole journey is written in my posts. I now represent healthy and happiness. I want to show anyone struggling that it is possible to recover, no matter how hard it may seem.

I am happy and healthy and living my life. Going to school, meeting friends and trying to find myself in this world.

I write about my daily life, but also try to write posts about how it was when i was sick, advice and tips.
I am open and friendly, so dont be scared about writing a post or sending me an email at: [email protected]

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Fullness

With my Mando Meter,  while i eat i ahev to fill in my fullness. It cmoes up very so often and you have to fill up this meter thing, on how ful you are.And im very good at getting right, but in all honesty, i dont feel it in my belly. I either feel relaly full or nothign in my belly. BUt they're aiming that wiht us using the Manod meter you get to know the fullness yourself. And thats like with Wii base, the lastt ime i did it, i got it spot on but when i plate it up, it jsut feels wrong. So its not really wokring then, is it? I shoudl eb cofident that im putting the right amount on and i should know when im full and when im not.
  BUt whatever... i really don give a fuck anyway. I shouldnt be using a fucking Mando Mter anyway.

2 comments:

  1. Hi, I have a friend with anorexia and I think your blog is really good as it gives an inside view. I just want to ask you, do you ever feel hungry at all? I mean if you don't eat anything, you're bound to feel hungry? Don't you feel the hunger tear in your stomach?
    Thank you,

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  2. Well, before when i didnt eat, i suppose i felt something in my stomach... most probably hunger but i didnt register it. And i wouldnt let myself eat and then that hunger would fade away, and i'd feel proud of myself, that i didnt give in.
    NOw though, as i eat 6 times a day, i cant say i feel hungry anymore. Either i feel really full or i feel nothing (Which is the worst feeling really cus then i cant tell if im hungry[which scares me] or not.)
    x

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